The Weight Thing and Other Stuff

Well, obviously from the ticker on my sidebar, you might have noticed that I have NOT lost any more weight since several weeks ago!!! Honestly, I haven't really tried much lately. I was doing really well, but then all of a sudden it was like I didn't care again, until yesterday.

For the past couple weeks I have been so BLAH!!! I have had two major headaches, migraine or cluster (not sure yet). I was suppose to go have the MRI, MRA and the EEG last week, but even though the Lord blessed us with the clergy discount at the Baptist hospital, I still couldn't afford to pay my part that day. The discount was very much appreciated. It knocked the amount I would owe down to less than a third of the entire bill. After insurance, the total bill was $4447.89! After the clergy discount it was only $789.84!!!!!!

Now tell me that isn't God working!

The only problem that morning was that they wanted me to have $500 of the money BEFORE I could have the tests done. Well, there was no way that was happening. I could barely afford to pay them $100 that day. I told the "financial counselor" that I had gotten paid that Monday, but didn't realize I would need that much money to have the tests done and that I thought I was going to be able to pay them out over time. My hubby had already written and mailed all the bills. I explained to her that I could bring another $150 on the 25th when I got paid again, then I could pay $100 out of every check (which is 2x's a month) till it was paid off.

She then explained to me that the amount I owed was because of my deductible and since it was going toward my deductible they would not let her take any less than $250 on that day. Then she started to explain to me that the MRI and MRA machines were down and that I would have to reschedule those tests. AND since those machines were down, the tests were being split up and the discount woudn't be as much.

After MUCH inner struggle, I told the woman, "Forget it! I will just deal with the headaches until I can get all the tests scheduled at the same time." I told her that I would work on setting aside the money needed for the tests and come back later.

There was actually much more said in that conversation....some of which I am embarrassed by, but in all the pain I had gone through over the past couple days prior to this, I didn't really care. I told my mother and my hubby and another friend that the pain I had in my head that day made me want to shoot my head off! I have NEVER felt that kind of pain before and I pray that none of you do EVER!!!!

There was NO sympathy coming from this woman. And it really frustrated me to no end. She had obviously never experienced such pain.

I just want to know what is causing the headaches. I want to get in to see the neurologist to discuss it all and get the medication I need to (hopefully) deter that kind of pain from ever rearing it's ugly head again! The pain for both only lasted approximately 45 minutes to an hour, but it was completely UNBEARABLE during that time, and for the next several days I had a constant headache.

Just pray for me in all this......I am sure it is nothing but Migraines or Cluster headaches, but I want to know and I want to get whatever medicine will work and I want it NOW!!!

The tests are rescheduled for May 1st and the neurologist appointment for May 9th.

Thanks friends!